It’s been such a long time since I’ve gotten to speak with you, let alone see your cute little faces. This pandemic changed so much about how we live our lives, and for some, how we make a livelihood. Looking back now, as we are hopefully coming to an end, I find myself looking back and wishing I had done some things differently, but also kind of proud of myself for not totally going crazy. When this started, I thought not going out to have a couple of drinks with friends would make me insane! Y’all know how I love people. But Beth and I enjoy one another’s company a lot. Believe it or not, she actually thinks I’m funny and I can’t disagree with her. But when she was working and I had to entertain myself, you know, the quiet was kind of nice.
Being a musician or maybe it’s just me, I’m constantly comparing myself to other people. This is not good for the mental state. With the pandemic, I found myself not doing that comparison trap! It gave my brain a rest not to be in a constant frenzy. Before I was always wondering “why am I not playing that?” Or “Ugh why am I so freakin old” why? why? why? This is the part of myself I do not like, but with you, as in my songs, I always try to be honest. Now as things are starting to open up, I feel my brain spinning. But, I am also so excited to get back out there. I’m sure I will have lots of nerves for the first couple of shows. I will need to get my sea legs back, but on when they are…watch out baby!
I will probably always be a little nervous before a show. I will always be a wee bit anxious about the ‘goings on’ of other artists, but I will also ALWAYS love hitting the road meeting new people, and seeing those I consider such dear friends. I have missed you all so much! I can’t wait to see you all again and have some laughs. I never knew how much I depend on seeing your faces out there while I do what I love. Online shows just weren’t the same for me, but I do appreciate your support by always tuning in and helping me make my mortgage payment. So while I may be a little jealous of others, maybe they’re jealous of me because I have the absolute best people in my life!
Thanks for checking out the new website. Now I have to go work out so I don’t break the next stage I’m standing on because of stupid Covid. ( or maybe because I lived on hot wings and pizza this last year.)
